I’m not excited

Let me know if this is wrong sub I tried posting in r/college but they took it down

I’m a junior and Okay I’m not sure exactly what I’m going to do but I know I want to work in stem I’m thinking doctor or vet at the moment. Anyways point is yes I do want a job that requires a 4 year degree.

I’m not not excited about college I really do like learning I’m excited for the labs and the clubs and all that but I’m only excited about the school part.

I feel like college is just going to be a bigger version of high school with the same cliques and social BS but I’ll have to be living there 24/7. Like I left traditional school because of that stuff and I feel like I won’t fit in at all and I’m not a social person anyways I like having my space being alone you know and I feel like I’m just going to be around people all day long but then also be lonely because I don’t have any close friends since I don’t really have any now. And I know people have interest but mine don’t exist in college I guess I just don’t think I’ll really blossom.

Also I don’t want to leave my family (and my animals, mainly my animals) because like I spend a lot of time with them and I’m going to miss them so much and I really don’t want to leave my dog and rabbit because I mean my dog is with my literally all the time I might leave her for like 3 hours tops if I have to. I do 4H dogs and most of my activities she comes with me. I sleep with her and can’t sleep without her and we go for a run everyday and like how am I supposed to just leave that? And all my animals don’t have a lot of time my dog will be 10 my rabbit will be 7 so what if I leave and when I come back they don’t make it?

And also you know my major and like clinic hours is gonna take up a ton of time so how am I supposed to work and do school and do all the other stuff I need to do?

Anyways I know this is probably way too much and I am a really deep feeler too I just feel like everyone else is excited for college and getting out of this place and I just feel like I’m happy now and I don’t want it to change and I’m not excited.