I think 125 was one of the best written chapters after timeskip. We see a man whose trauma isn't made solely for aesthetic and then brushed off later on but a man whose trauma impacted his life and relationships. 

It feels frustrating and uncomfortable to readers but a lot of people saw themselves in him. Because many of us wish we had done things differently in the past. He's stuck in a self destructive loop of wishing he had done things differently. He knows the exact moments he messed up and could have made a different choice- that's self awareness and guilt. 

This also brings an interesting question to me that he regretted so many moments, he even stood out of sooae's home the night before leaving and tried to contact her. But not once did we see him regret not picking her calls. 

Why so? That would have been the first thing he thought of from his POV. Does it imply he never got them? Is this why he is scared of her reaction and scared to open up to her? Does he think she didn't reach out to him after the day he saw her at bus stop? 

A while ago I made a post talking about how it's possible eunhyuk never got her calls after that and there maybe some substance to it yet. 

Regardless, he was a teen dealing with a mother who OD'ed nd a father who was abusive and didn't gaf. He had no adult figure that could have looked out for him. Sooae was also just a teen like him. 

I think this chapter was so well done from plot point coz now sooae is not gonna seek answers from him. He will have to put in the work and determine whether he wants to fix himself and answer sooae or he wants to be trapped in that toxic cycle for eternity. His suffering and dilemma felt so real and anyone who's like it's so easy to communicate haven't been through what he has. 

Ps: Rating system are a joke coz the latest highest chp is the one where that guy is doing a dressing room photo shoot and has no substance behind it, so don't bother worrying about that.

Anyways author has put lot of care and intensity in writing Eunhyuk's character where he is a person outside his love interest. He is flawed, self aware, stuck in a cycle and it will be interesting to see his journey to healing. 

That's all. 

Eunhyuk's trauma feels too real