I’m tired of feeling tired

I (21M) can’t do this anymore. i constantly have to contend with the physical symptoms of depression - brain fog, confusion, headaches, etc., and i can’t do it anymore. every day is a battle with fatigue and tiredness and trying to get my mind to work correctly but it can’t. i have trouble understanding and processing things that two years ago I would’ve been able to tackle normally.

today started off with a struggle just to get to work. this morning I woke up with another tension headache - one that has persisted since basically May of this year - and just lost it. i had a screaming breakdown because i just want to feel normal again. not even mentioning the psychological symptoms, i just want to PHYSICALLY feel well again. im really sick of hearing “it gets better”. i just want it to finally happen.