If given the chance, I’d fuck my former teacher.

I’m well into adulthood now and happily married. But I would be lying if I didn’t say I fantasized about my former teacher. There’s so much to be said about the fantasy of it. The forbidden nature of it all, the sneaking around that would have to happen, and the age gap concept. They are married as well and I’m very anti-cheating! But if I could 100% guarantee no one would ever find out and my former teacher felt the same way, I’d act on it. I’d compromise my morals for the fantasy. I also have a praise kink so I often fantasize about this person praising me for performing sexual favors or fucking them. It’s not even that I’m necessarily attracted to them but simply attracted to the idea of the whole experience. Sometimes I even struggle to get the thought of them out of my head during sex with my partner. It makes me feel like I’m a little fucked in the head but I also think other people possibly think the same things at times. I’m often tempted to reach out and flirt with former teacher but I don’t want to make anything weird and wouldn’t want any physical evidence of me flirting, in the event it back fired. There’s a high possibility it wouldn’t be received well. It’s crazy how often I think about them and how I try to analyze if they want me too. When they’ve given literally no signs. lol. Sometimes I feel desperate for their attention, am I fucked up in the head?