RELEASE ME 💔💔💔

(Long post incoming) I believe I am in a situationship and it is the worst thing ever actually. I am in college and I met this girl and we became friends (yay!). She knows I am wlw and she has told me she is bi. I jokingly flirt with all of my friends and she flirts back, but there are some things that have me feeling 🤨🤨🤨 and I have no idea if she actually likes me. To my knowledge no one has ever liked me before and I’m also autistic so I might genuinely just be misreading things. Evidence for:

• once told me “my abs look rlly good today”. I jokingly said “proof” and she showed me. Later, another friend she’s known longer made the same joke. She didn’t show them.

• keeps grabbing my hand and saying “idk I just wanted to hold your hand”. Once following this up by saying “we’re girlfriends now”

• she keeps calling me her “submissive omega” 😭🙏 (again as a joke bc we did the tests for shiggles)

• she sat across from me and I said “it’s like we’re on a date”. She responded in a completely deadpan tone “when will it be real.” And we stared at each other silently for a solid five seconds before I looked at her like 🤨 (she said smth similar again recently but I can’t for the life of me remember specifics)

• we were talking abt muscles again and I mentioned that I have pretty defined calves bc I run. Idk how to say this without it sounding rlly weird but she asked to see and then asked to feel 💀🙏 again sounds weird but it was chill at the time.

• she keeps sending me tiktoks like “when the friendship starts to feel more like a relationship” and “we’ve both been single for so long why don’t we just…”. A friend who she tends to send lots of stuff to as well said she doesn’t send these to her (but she could still be sending them to others)

And a probably more that I forgot. However, evidence against:

• she seems to have exclusively liked men. If she says she’s bi then obviously who am I to say otherwise, it’s perfectly fine to have a preference or just have a more specific type in women, not have had a chance with women, etc, but it feels like every few weeks she likes a new man and talks about him a lot (“he’s rlly fit and I basically wanna marry him” etc etc). Not sure how serious these crushes are tho bc she never really makes attempts to talk to them? But still seems disappointed if she finds out they’re taken or whatever.

• she is very friendly with practically everyone (ie “ily bye!!” To ppl she’s known two days), and just bc i feel like she flirts w me more doesn’t mean she actually does.

• a few people have already told me that they think she’s just making “harmless” jokes and that im overthinking it.

• she was talking about a male friend who recently got a gf but also seemingly had feelings for her, and mentioned that she hates it when people make friends and then end up just wanting to get with her. She might’ve just been talking about men and I didn’t start a friendship intending to date her, but I still think this counts here.

Again I am autistic and desperately lonely and honestly still trying to work out my own feelings. No one has ever liked me or asked me out before and I am very scared and almost definitely will be to anxious to ask her anything. Just wanted to see the opinions of the more experienced masses. Hope you’re all doing well 🫶