Unavoidable pain

Okay so suffering is not the whole point (I suggested this in a previous post). And pain is inevitable & unavoidable… and clinging to this idea causes me suffering. And trying to stay in the mindset of ‘pain is unavoidable’ to try and soften the blow is just clinging to something else so that sucks too…

Idk I’m just angry at being disappointed and not getting my expectations met- which I know is ridiculous I’m just being honest here lol. I’m completely disillusioned with how life is and all the beliefs I held about how life “should” be.

I want to give up all my belongings, my past, my hopes&dreams, shave my head and say what’s the point. But even that feels like protecting myself from pain & disappointment.

So I guess what I’m saying is… how can I allow the pain to come (&go) without clinging to either the pain itself or any beliefs/identities/expectations?