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i used to use my future as a coping skill I would get through my OCD episodes by thinking about my future now my biggest thing I'm hung up is the future what if he's not right what if something happens to our future all that I know he's right I know he's perfect. I've come full circle and told him every little detail of my OCD. He understands me. He loves me and he tells me how strong I am for dealing with this every day. He shows me unconditional love every single day. I guess I'm trying to say is because I use it as a coping skills is that why this is tainted or is that how I actually feel my biggest fear is that's how I actually feel because I love him so much and so dearly I don't picture my life with anybody else I never wanna be single ever again. I don't wanna be with somebody else.