i feel bad for my boyfriend

my boyfriend and i have been dating for 7 months now, and i’ve noticed that ever since i’ve been with him, my mental health has gotten worse.

i started SH again, and any time he does something I try to point out makes me uncomfortable (he refuses to talk to me in front of his friends), he all of a sudden can’t take my comment and turns into a 5 year old.

he makes me feel guilty for speaking up, and quite frankly i’m at the point where i’m having thoughts of suicide because i feel like i’m a horrible person.

obviously this sounds extreme and i’m jumping the gun, but i’ve tried therapy, talking to him, and pretty much every other thing in the book. our relationship is fine until i mention something i don’t like about how he’s acting.

does anyone have any advice on how to handle suicidal thoughts? im very afraid for myself currently, but at this moment i do not plan on acting on them.

** please note i left out a lot of details as i do not want this to be taken down. c: