What if she doesnt come

So last 2 weeks one my old high school friends been the only friend to been checkin up on me of both of my depressed right now and of my ex friend may bout be convicted

We're supposed to meet up today, mental health day, let emotions out and game

My brain does this every time friend supposedly gonna come this day but idea of not showing up

What if she ghosts me.

I'm tired this pain, tired of this isolation

Beside her. Besides people thinking of my bff getting arrested is true and not care how i felt in may.

No one talked to me since like march, maybe february. Yeah sure 8 my friends now fiances and even teen parents but. Idk maybe i'm bit insecure and "emotionally attached"