wanting bottom grwoth

hai :) I'm thinking about going on T. One of the changes I would be really excited about would be bottom grwoth. At the same time envisioning having a bigger penis-like penis is something I definitely don't like. Can someone relate to that? I think I'm a bit confused because of the binary stuff in my subconscious that tells me that when I already desire changes on my genitals, I should want the whole package..