My current state

Hello there loves. So I'm 21 and have bipolar 2 (maybe it's obvious 🤔) but anyway. Currently I'm in a pretty weird state/situation. I eat 600mg of lamotrigine (400mg morning and 200mg evening). And fluoxetine 40mg.

But enought about the medicine. What I want to say is that my depressive state is under control (thank the gods) but my hypomania however is still..can you say too strong. It better than before but not good enough.

So I had a temporary job at a hospital. And now I'm back studying. But during my last hypomanic episode I blew like 8000 Swedish kroner (or 850 American dollars) on a PS5, controllers and games. Literally just because I saw an ad 😑. So now I'm kinda scared that I will never be able to handle money. And live a "normal" life. I don't wanna fall into debt. Personally i find that thought pretty terrifying.

So I would like to know what y'all would do in my situation. And if anyone have experienced something similar?

Love from me ❤️