I am so tired living in this house, please give me some advice

Day by day living in this house is getting more difficult than the last. I 18F live with my parents. Still in 12th grade, so can't move out yet. Here are a couple things they have done over the years described vaguely:-

* They keep going through my phone, keep screaming at me when I say no, saying I don't deserve privacy.

* Threw a chair at my head once and then tried to tell me that never happened when I called it out months later.

* When I was two years old, I had accidently picked up something at a store and went out with it, when an employee came running after us, they apologized to him and then slapped me.

*Went to a different country for some event when I was 6, they accidently left me at the airport, almost boarding the plane and then hit me multiple times after they found me.

*Took me to the place of someone who sexually abused me despite knowing what he did to me because "he's still family" and I should "forgive and forget"

*Three years ago, I won an award for something. Before my ceremony, told me how I looked like shit. Said they are embarrassed to have me as their kid.

*Said even if I go to college, I won't be allowed to make a decision without their approval. They would want my location 24/7 and I am not allowed to date whatsoever even in college.

*Kicked me out of the house almost for being queer.

This is only the tip of the ice berg. Reading this may sound like they don't love me, but they do, they just love me conditionally. The second I deviate from their expectations, their love for me disappears. I genuinely can't take it anymore. Every other incident, every other day feels so, so hard. Some words of advice and comfort would be appreciated. Will take this post down if it starts getting too much attention. Don't want them to find out.