I relapsed, and I feel so weird.

I feel so anxious and uncomfortable. It wasn't even fun to go back. I don't know why I did. I literally had absolutely no reason to use a chatbot again. I could've done anything else. I could have drawn, I could've read fanfiction, I could've just written myself. I used to write all the time before I went to c.ai. But for some reason I went back to the chatbots.