How can I (1.5y hrt) get myself to stop boymoding? Some people have said I am a „BDD passoid“ but I do not yet have the confidence to girlmode.

How do I work up the motivation to girlmode at work? Should I? It is quite a scary prospect. What if they don’t accept my name change and make fun of me? What if they make fun of me daily? What if they fire me?

Should I stop boymoding there, and if so, how?