Ajeeb

My sister has become so boring. I am terrified of when she'll be back in pakistan in December InshaAllah because what am I going to talk to her about. Matlab our lives have completely changed. I love my niece MashaAllah se magr I can't really talk to a baby on video call, there's not a lot that I can do. I just don't think ke we have the same bond anymore, she's 9 years older than me and practically raised me but last year which was the worst year of my life she wasn't there. She had a veryyyy valid reason I understand but I don't think she'll ever understand all the things that happened last year and I just feel distant from her. Currently life is very wierd, I just don't want things to go wrong because I know I'll get angry and say something wrong.