It feels weird

Im a trans girl. The only issue is not being able to do anything to make me feel like a girl. I cant look fem or dress fem, mostly due to my parents being religious. My friends know im trans and everything but it just feels weird. I like being reffered to as she/her but when they do it just feels weird because i myself dont feel girly enough to be called that. I look just like any other boy and i hate it but being called she/her feels worse in a way because i dont feel girly enough to be called it. Get what i mean?