Dreams: The sad state of affairs

Guys, things are getting bad. We’ve had sex once this year while on vacation. Last year was perhaps 5 times. My main issue however is just the general apathy towards me physically. It’s destroyed my self esteem and feels like there is something wrong with me.

It’s so bad that my only relief are dreams. I had a dream the other night where a chick from my HS class started feeling me up and fawning over me. It felt so amazing to just be physically desired. When I woke I tried my best to get back to that dream to no avail.