28 [TF4TF] Seattle I will never stop looking for my person

Hi hiyaa~ I’m 27, transfeminine (she/they), and I’ve been on HRT for about 70 days. I’m still a few months away from feeling ready to do anything fully femme-presenting, so I’m taking things slow, but I do know one thing: I really, really want connection. The kind of connection that makes your chest feel full and warm, where talking to someone feels magical.

I’m romantically attracted to women, and when it comes to trans people, I’m naturally drawn to other transfemme individuals. People often tell me I look like a twink, but honestly, I just wish people could see me for who I am: a lesbian with a big, tender heart who has been quietly carrying a huge longing for love and intimacy for most of her life.

I’ve wanted to fall in love for 16 years. I’ve wanted erotic connection for 15. And I’ve never gotten to share that with anyone. My inner world has grown so big and soft because of it, all my tenderness, passion, desire, and hope has just been quietly waiting.

At 19, I had a huge existential moment. I became agnostic and realized that life can feel scary and unfair sometimes. People often give in to fear, suffering is everywhere, and the world can feel unpredictable and cruel. But instead of giving up, I decided to dedicate my life to understanding it. That’s why I became a theoretical physics student: to figure out reality, to understand life and death, and maybe someday help humans have more to live for.

It’s been a lonely journey, filled with grief, doubt, fear, and learning to be gentle with myself. Music has been my little safe corner. I’ve been writing songs for over a decade — more than a hundred of them — about love, loneliness, desire, hope, fear, courage, and all the little and big things in life. I can’t copyright them yet, so no one’s heard them, but I also produce EDM and DJ mixes, because that’s something I can share for now, and it keeps me happy and creative.

I’m really, really romantic. The connection is what matters most to me, not a relationship, but the actual magic between hearts, the emotional intimacy, the soft, electric spark, the being there for each other. That’s what I’ve been waiting for.

I have some important physical preferences: I coincidentally prefer similarity in body type, and I happen to be quite thin. I know it’s a little unusual, but please don’t misjudge me, I don’t deserve that. Preferences exist, and they deserve respect 🫠

I’m drawn to people who are soft, kind, gentle, artistic, a little quirky, and curious about life. People who feel things deeply, speak in their own way, and meet intensity without fear. People who want to be alive.

I’m not rushing anything, and I’m not looking for instant labels. I just want to meet someone whose heart resonates with mine, who’s willing to share their world and let me share mine. If any of this makes your chest feel warm, or your heart flutter, or even just makes you smile, I’d really, really love to hear from you 💜