Anhedonia is the worst part of depression

Imagine that you don’t feel any emotions. Nothing. You’re alive, but… what kind of life is that? Nothing makes you happy. You have to force yourself to do everything. I’m already at a point where I don’t even feel fear. Recently, I was close to getting beaten up, but it turned out they mistook me for someone else and let me go. I didn’t feel anything during the situation. No fear, no anxiety. I didn’t struggle, I didn’t try to defend myself or run away. Hopeless. And this has been going on for 4–5 years. Only a miracle or death can save me.