I keep ‘losing’ in the 3D and it’s messing with my desired state. Help?

I entered a competition to win a house and some money. The houses are gorgeous, but the money is even prettier.

Winning a house like any of the ones they put up would set me for life. I enter, I feel confident, I visualise, I script, I forget about it.

Then comes the closing date.

My anxiety peaks, and I don’t win. (Shocker!)

Today I found out I lost again (I’ve played 3 times), each time I start out confident then low key freak out close to the closing date. I really wanted this mf house. It’s GORGEOUS. But I didn’t win. High key depressing tbh.

I know “how” to manifest. I have manifested an sp, an engagement, etc, and I know my doubts are tripping me up, but I can’t seem to lock in with this competition.

I want the nice house and the cash prize. I’m set on winning. But I keep self sabotaging, and I’m not sure why.

If I was to manifest this situation “perfectly” how would I do it?