Burned out and unsure if I should stay in my nonprofit role

I’m posting here because I’m honestly at a point where I don’t know how to keep working like this, and I’m hoping others in the nonprofit sector might understand.

I got promoted around this time last year. My boss and I work from two different countries, and since fundraising is very difficult where I am, he is still the main person doing it. I travel when he asks and try to support everything as best as I can, but not every donor or prospect we meet actually aligns with our mission. So most of the time, once he finds a prospect or has an initial talk, I take over the rest with my team—proposal writing, donor communication, grant management, reports, everything.

I do want to do more, and he expects more from me too, but I’m not sure how to meet those expectations when the structure of the work makes it so hard. The funding gap, cuts, and constant instability make everything even heavier. He is stressed, and because I empathize with him, I also push myself harder. But it never seems to be enough. He wants to see the emails I send, the proposals I write, every small thing. I hardly get real feedback, just pressure.I took over this position from the previous head with only two weeks of handover. They had been here for years. Everything this year has been new to me, and the learning curve has been huge. I don’t want to brag about working hard, but I honestly haven’t had a single day this whole year where I didn’t have to touch my laptop. Not one.I work because I care about the mission, not because of the compensation, which is honestly very low. I accepted it because the mission mattered to me. But now I’m feeling unsure whether this is still worth it. I’m stressed, I look like I have no authority towards my team when I need to wait for his feedback, even for a single campaign email, and it feels like the pressure keeps growing while the support doesn’t.

I don’t know if anyone else has been in a similar situation—working across countries, handling fundraising pressure, taking over a whole department with almost no guidance. I’m just tired and confused, and I’m not sure how long I can keep doing this.

Any advice or even just hearing from someone who understands would really help.