Idk if this belongs in here

Hi, I (15F) am not sure if im a cis woman. I love some dresses, but I LOVE men's business casual style! Im jealous of how pretty men's dress shoes unlike women's, but idk if I would pull it off. Im really tiny and obese, but I keep planning on trying to loose weight but there's too many good foods, and I feel hopeless that I'll grow anymore taller. Im 5'1 btw :,/. I also don't know if I would risk the fact that I can be a mom (in the future) just to look fashionable. Idk if im aroace too, because it'll be like I don't want romance or sex with anyone, but if I read yaoi or stuff (im addicted to yaoi), i'll feel like, I wish this was me. Maybe im just seeking for love idk- maybe im just hormonal- I also have a pretty religious family, and im scared I'll be disliked because I feel this- I also tried to be friends with a MTF, but when I said that they were tall for a woman and I really don't know why asked weird questions honestly- I kinda feel like an ass for that I know I shouldn't have said that. Apparently height is kinda offensive that I've learned. I also really like Korean skincare, cause I have ASD, and I HATED the regular sunscreen scent, so when I tried Innisfree's daily UV sunscreen, i liked how it smelled like green tea, but I think it did leave a white cast in my brownish skin tone. I'd really like some advice and tips!