After break-up

I break up with my boyfriend. Actually it was long distance relationship and we never see each other. I wanted he said he wanted but in future because he wasn't financially ready. Being honest I never understand that because I was okay to go where he lives. We have a gift about it but then I accepted. He is unemployed I am still student. This year was challenging for me. My mom had cancer ( she is fine right now thankfully) and I was the most of it who take care of everything. So I was stressful and felt so lonelyWe usually have a fight and he never wants to talk. Most of our fights I wanted to talk and solve the problem but he didn' because he didn't want to hurt my feelings or his feelings. But that hurt me just acting nothing happened hurt me I talked to him but nothing changed. And he get tired of me I think. So I wanted to break up he accepted. We break up peacefully. But it still hurts me and I cannot get rid of guilty feeling. Maybe I was too rough he is a good person. I am not going to change my opinion about break up. Because it is what is right. But I don't know how can I heal. Can anybody help me just talk to me tell your story maybe. Give advice or something