Saw his user active in discord

Before my now crush, I was talking to a guy last year. We didn't end up in good terms — basically he ghosted me and I was dumb enough to leave him a message before blocking his user. Now, I cleaned my blocked list, and I saw his user active in a server we frequented. I literally trembled from the sight of it, not because I saw him active, but the moments I shared with him are deeply personal and it's something I couldn't forget about.

I was cursing the whole time kasi, why? After three weeks of not being active there, and now hopping in priv calls kasi bored ako, dun ko pa nakita yung user niya. Naiinis ako. Tanga ko sa part rin na I blocked and unblocked him.