Does anyone else do this?

Doesn’t anyone else self harm and then take a shower right after? Or am I alone on this? Like, just to feel something more sometimes?

I feel like I struggle to take a shower if I haven’t self harmed sometime in the day beforehand 😓

I’ve also found that when I do it before bed and then sleep on it, it’s more healed than I feel it should be, and maybe this is my memory is this bad and I’m simply forgetting when I did shit again, or I just don’t do it very hard.

At any rate, I hope you’re all having a good day, or that if you aren’t, it either improves or you have a better tomorrow. Especially to the moderators! Thank you for keeping this place a safe place for the people that need it! (Sorry if I broke any rules, I’m new here and I fear I’m bad at this)