I’m 44 years old and this is the first time I’ve ever lived alone.

After graduating hs I moved in with a woman who would become my first wife.

After we split 5 years later, I went back to my parents; lived with them for ~about 5 years until I moved in with my second wife.

Fast forward 15 years, we separated at the end of March. I lived in our last apartment for 7 months and even though I was alone, it still felt like OUR home. The routine was the same, I just didn’t have anyone to come home to.

I had to move at the beginning of November and I don’t know how to make this place feel like home. It feels more like a hotel or a hospital room. So much of the past 15 years was us (to a probably unhealthy degree) and so I feel like I’m not sure who I am and how to make myself feel at home.