I really need some advice

For starters, this is related to high school, troubles with work, and loneliness.

Usually I don’t do this, I don’t usually choose the pathway of using Reddit to help me with personal things in life, but here I am. You can guess that it’s pretty serious

So to inform y’all, I go to a good high school. I am struggling though, and y’all may be wondering why? That is because I don’t have much friends to talk to at school, or even in my neighborhood. I have a neighbor with a daughter who’s in my grade and goes to the same school, but I feel like she doesn’t seem too comfortable with me.

That, and also the people. I struggle with times where people have been picking on me. Recently, in my gym class, people have been calling me names such as “cumrag” or even mixing my name with the word gooner. A few months ago was when it started, I even had to report them to the councilor because of how awful it got. But it started back up yet again, all because of my lovely colleague who I now hate. The 10th graders from strength and conditioning class even call me it now

Moving on to homework, I’m stressed about it. I find myself not wanting to do it at all, and I can’t tell if it’s because I am too miserable to do it, or if I’m just too addicted to video games. Recently I’ve been using janitor.ai to cope, which I’m working very hard with trying to abolish out of my life. I am aware ai is not healthy for me to use as cope.

Recently I’ve talked to my mom about how I feel about school, how I completely feel bitter about coming back, knowing that the only thing I’m there for is work, with friends not being a full option. She asked me to hang out with my colleagues a bit more often, which I thought wasn’t a bad idea.

I know this isn’t supposed to be for a therapist, but they cost money, and I don’t want my family to spend more money. My theory here is that the reason I have very few friends at school is because I used to be weird in middle school. I’ve noticed that I grew up faster than anyone, considering how oddly calm I am during shit shows happening at school. I’ve recently thought of typing an online story in Google documents about how I feel (Took heavy inspiration from Cry of Fear), but I don’t think I’ll ever have time to do so.

FYI, I am not suicidal nor depressed. I am just going through a bit of adversity, and I want some advice for it. Sure, I’m sad, but not depressed entirely.