Learning to be okay with male pronouns again

Hello all, I'm back hehe. These past couple of weeks, I've been dealing with this horrible Gender OCD, and it's made me actively fear male related pronouns since I didn't like the idea of being ftm trans.

Well, I personally feel like there's a light at the end of the tunnel in regards to it. I know who I am gender wise, I'm a Genderfluid female, but I'm learning to accept male pronouns again. My journey is far from over, but I truly believe this is the beginning of the end.