I need help

Hey guys, I'm Ozer (not my real name, I can't use it). I'm from a Muslim country, unfortunately, and I'm an atheist, but I'm underage (I'm 17, btw). My whole family is Muslim. The thing is, if you live in a Muslim country and you disagree with them in religion or way of thinking, you'll be ostracized and killed in 95% of cases, and the remaining 5% will go to prison. Anyway, I've applied for scholarships to several countries and haven't been accepted yet. I really need to leave my country because, as I said, I'm not Muslim like them, and nobody knows yet because I definitely don't want to die or go to prison. But there are many problems. First, I can't find a job, and the only jobs I've found pay $80 a month, which barely covers my food and drink. So I decided to work as a freelancer, but I haven't been able to earn a single dollar in two years. Now, when I tried to verify my Upwork account, they closed it because I'm underage. When I tried to find remote work, I couldn't because I'm underage and still in high school. I tried everything to find a job, and when I started learning digital marketing, my laptop was stolen. I can't afford to buy another one, and I don't know what to do now. Btw, the scholarship I applied for isn't full-time or financially dependent. If I can't afford it, I won't be able to get it. It's not a university scholarship; it's a high school scholarship called UWC. I also want to tell you that I can't tell them about my situation so they can help me because if they find out I'm an atheist, they'll reject me. The committee in my country is hypocritical; they claim to respect all beliefs and ideas, but they're lying. I've checked the names of everyone who's been accepted for the scholarship since 2018, and I haven't found a single Christian. They always choose Muslims. So, if anyone can give me advice on how to find a good remote job that I can do with just my phone, I would be very grateful. I'm very sorry, I used to be a translator on Upwork. I speak Arabic and English, and now I'm learning French. If anyone has any advice on what else I can learn to help me find a job at my age, I would be very grateful. Please, I don't want any mockery in the comments. I know my life is almost impossible, but I'm trying my best, so please be kind or ignore my post. Thank you very much in advance. Also, I want to say in conclusion that I don't feel safe in my own country. If anyone finds out I'm an atheist, they will cut my throat or imprison me, and I swear that my own family, with whom I live in the same house, would do this before anyone else.