Help me

This is more about flirting but idfk. I’m (22f) so effing awkward and always assume I’m misreading signals. So I was at this party a few months ago, a chill but decent sized party at a friend’s house. There was a guy there that I’ve seen before but haven’t really spoken to. I’ve always thought he’s fine af tho. We were two of the first ones there and kinda ended up hanging around each other the whole night. We didn’t even really talk too much honestly, I was too nervous, but when we did, it felt charged at least on my end but that is probably simply because I’m attracted to him. I have a tendency to be extremely awkward and self-sabotaging when I’m feelin someone, the fear of letting on that I’m into them takes over and I make an effort not to show it. Then I start to think, is that my intuition protecting me bc I know the truth that they don’t like me. Anyway. There are a lot of little instances that I’m overthinking the meaning of, but there’s one that’s been on my mind on a loop. So a few of us were crouching down to pet a cat, and I kinda was disassociating and then realized everyone had left but Mr. Fine Man was still crouching next to me. Once I realized, we began making awkward small talk that again, felt juicy and weighted and like we were just trying to find something to talk about, I found a moment to stand up, and he followed, and then the tension was broken by an outside force after a moment. After the fact, idk, I found it weird that it felt so tense, that he was waiting for my lead to stand up, we both absentmindedly stayed there, how tense and weighted it was when we realized. idk. Like if that was some normal Rando it wouldn’t have gone down like that. Am I awkward and desperate and projecting??? Because when people say you can tell they’re flirting by eye contact and other stuff it’s like breh I’m actively avoiding doing shit like that bc I’m a weenie so now idfk. If I have time think this hard, does that mean I’m just projecting ?/?? Help me pls