High needs/sleep sensitive baby

Just ranting. Baby hasn’t been a bad sleeper by any means. Would nap 1.5hr x2/say. She just turned 10 months and the sleep regression is killing me. She just learned to stand for a few seconds today and pull herself up. Combine that with an afternoon nap refusal (also a newer thing) and wow-tonight sucked. We bottle feed and rock to sleep and have a very regimented routine. She slept for an hour and then for 1.5+ hours would not fall asleep in her crib. She would peacefully drift off in my arms but eyes PLASTERED open as soon as she hit the crib. After an hour and a half of rocking and and soothing, she cried it out for a few and finally fell asleep. Any other moms get this just black hole of a feeling when their baby is screaming? I feel like I’m in fight or flight mode, still to this day, when she shrieks. And when her sleep is out of whack, I find that I’m on edge for a while (I should be sleeping but I’m obsessively checking the camera, holding my breath each time-afraid she’s awake.) She’s a bit high needs just in general-Whiney/fussy at baseline. Im young and I myself have some serious medical issues I’m facing. ’m just off on a rant, any words of encouragement welcome!!