I unintentionally cheated on my LDR bf

My bf and I are in a LDR and I’d be lying if I didn’t say it was difficult but in all I truly love him. Sadly before we started dating we were good friends for about 2 years. I’d told him everything and about everyone in my life. I even talked to him about a crush I had on one of our mutual friends that doesn’t live that far away from me. I would just talk about how hot he was and his amazing muscles cause he worked out on the daily. Eventually I got over it and I realized I had no chance with my crush. Instead my mind went to my now bf and I started crushing on him, he was sweet, kinda and so very funny. Plus he was much more on my level I could say.

Well because my bf knows about the old crush on my friend, he can get really insecure about it. Anytime I talk about my friend, brag about him or just tell a story he just shuts down not wanting to hear about him. I kept trying to him it means nothing he just doesn’t listen. One night I decide to hang out with my friend who I shall name Aaron and my bf doesn’t want me too. Aaron had already called out on work and this was going to meet me at the bar. After begging and reluctance my bf said sure but he obviously didn’t like it.

I met up with my friend and we ate and talked for a few hours but the place closed so I decided to hang out in his car. My bf was constantly blowing up my phone wanting updates and I was getting frustrated. My friend could clearly tell and he asked me if everything was okay, that’s when I just spilled the truth. I told him about the crush and how my bf was super insecure and that no matter what I did and said my bf was so scared that something was going on between us.

My friend laughed and said that it sounded rough and that he was surprised that I had a crush on him. I tried to explain why I did and talked about how attractive he was and how I felt at the time. He even started to blush and he looked so cute. He even admitted that he crushed on me too for a bit and just said all the right things. How I was so understanding and pretty I began to blush. We were just sitting there looking at each other and we kissed.

I was so shocked, I had crushed and fantasized about his man for so long and now I was kissing him. But I snapped back remembering my bf and realizing that it was so wrong. By my friend took his hand and started caressing my thigh tenderly, his hands were so strong, I could feel them gripping my thighs, then slowly sliding on the inside of my leg. I could t help but let out a slight gasp. I could see the smile and on his face and I lost it. I started kissing him again while his hands rubbed me over my leggings. Fuck I was getting so wet, feeling his middle finger bare down on my clit.

We locked lips and he finally slipped his hand into my leggings and penetrated with his muscled thick fingers. All I could do was reach over and grab his crotch, feeling for the outline of his cock and I could. It felt so big and pulsing, barring against the fabric of his pants. Has he fingered me harder I squeezed and stroked him harder. Before I knew it I was cumming and creaming all over his fingers.

As soon as I regained my composure i immediately returned the favor, I reached over and reclined his seat back and took his meaty cock out. I started sucking his cock from tip to base and I must have been so hasty that I didn’t really comprehend the size difference. He was only about an inch or two longer than my bf but his girth was so big I could feel it completely suffocating my throat.

His hands made it to my head and neck has he bobbed my head to his rhythm. My tongue swirling around his tip. After only two minutes he blew is load in the of my throat and I sucked down every drop. After a bit we tried our best to clean up and we awkwardly said good bye. I went back to my car and sat there while I comprehended the magnitude of my mistake. I couldn’t help but feel so guilty and sorry. It was clear I could never do this again and I would need to keep this secret forever cause if my bf found out he definitely dump me. I love my bf, I want him and that’s all there is to it, I made a mistake one night and one I hope he never knows