Does anyone relate? This is to a friend.

I wrote this right now in the moment. But I need to know I am not the only one who feels this so strongly.

A friendship slowly slipping away hurts more than cutting one right off, because the grief over it is agonizingly slow along with questioning all you ever did.

You know what always hurts so bad? It's realizing you love a friend more than they love you. I am not one who can pour all my love on someone and be ok with them coming back to me when they're ready. I dont wait like that. Yes, I will always be your friend but I will never be the friend you had before. I will forgive you for something you didn't ask for. But I won't put myself in the position of needing to forgive you again. I love you so deeply and yet you dont love me. I dont understand. Because you tell me nothing. That's fine. I get it. But dont expect me to love you the same anymore when you dont love me back. I am ready to be extreme and block you to save myself further hurt. To believe that I can do that bcs I will never see you again. I am silently dying, but before I go damage must be done. I will silently bring you down with me and won't take action to look like I was ever in the wrong. Because you have told me NOTHING when I have confronted you, I will act according to your communication. Therefore, acting like I knew nothing and that in the end you were the one who hurt me. I love you so deeply. But I respect myself more than I love you.