I'm done fr

Hi, I'm at my lowest moment of my life due to some events and mental health issues. I'm about to turn 21 and still not in uni. In the pandemic I was overthinking a lot about studies, i did really well before 10th and in the ptm my school teachers praised me, I wanted to see my parents' proud face again. I ended up ruining my health, stopped eating and obsessive with perfection. I recovered initially and then I lost my cats and was in a relationship which ended. I left school for a year and I had to repeat 11, everyday juniors mocked me and teachers too behind my back. I ended up failing my 12th boards, got compartment in 2024 and absent in few subjects this year, so I'm reappearing. I feel lonely most of the days, I don't have friends irl. Sometimes I feel like quitting everything. I'm a disgrace to my parents. I wish I had some guidance or venting space.