How do I tell my boss that I'm not happy with the news he shared and that I will try moving to other roles?

Warning: Post is super long. So nagtry ako gumawa ng mga sections.

Hello. I created a new account for this kasi yung main account ko on Reddit is linked to my YT channel. And I’d like to stay anonymous for this query.

++ Background:

The background is, currently AVP ako sa isang huge MNC and I was trying my best to get promoted to a VP by meeting all my goals. May certain guideline how to get promoted. Very systemic kasi ang promotion sa amin. As long as you met the goals/metrics, you have a good shot at getting promoted.

Metrics and goal wise, kuha ko lahat. Plus some. I was able to do my role and some beyond what is expected of me.

Ganda rin ng 360 feedback sa akin from different stakeholders, within and outside of my team. Kahit ibang line of business may 360 feedback ako na maganda.

Okay naman from Q1 to Q3. Pero towards the end of Q3, napansin ko na di na namin pinag uusapan ng boss ko (he’s Indian and based in India) yung promotion.

I kept probing pero lagi siya nag dodge sa convo, kaya may kutob na ako.

Last week, he dropped the bomb on me. I am not getting it. Kasi daw need ng “sponsor” na Director Level for me to push through. And sabi nya ganun daw talaga.

Sa isip ko, alam naman pala nya, bakit di namin pinag usapan since start of the year di ba?

Tapos sinabi nya ito daw need gawin, etc. Talagang planado nya ano need ko gawin.

Ang nakakapag taka, di pa YE discussion delivery pero dineliver na nya sa akin. At pag usapan daw namin if game ako sa plan nya.

I was silent through the call kasi give some time to think ang sinabi nya. And syempre, nanggigigil ako sa inis.

I needed this. My wife and I are undergoing a medical crisis and we need every centavo. Feeling ko walang akong win this year. Emotionally, physically, psychologically, financially drained na ako.

Marami pang personal circumstance na almost nasa point na ako ng breakdown and just end it all. I am seeking EAP support now from our EAP provider.

++ My Dilemma:

Next week, mag totoong YE discussion na kami. Gusto ko sa kanya tanong what went wrong this year. Bakit need pa ng 1 year of waiting? And sasabihin ko sa kanya na gagawin ko parin naman yang plans nya kasi di naman ako yung tipong just drop everything na type na tao.

Pero at the same time, gusto ko sabihin na mag aapply din ako internally for a VP post (since goal and metrics wise which is system recorded, I meet the criteria). And of course, externally.

++ My Question:

Is this a good convo to have? Marami naman akong experience when it comes to difficult convos and in my mind, I think this is the right way to move forward.

Pero ewan ko ba, sobrang tulala ako pag sa sarili kong career.

Or what would you tell me if you’re my career coach?