For D

Tonight I wish you were holding me

I’m so bummed your attitude towards what it means to be in a relationship is crappy

And I’m so sad that I can’t just tell you when I need you and for most of the time you respond by showing you care and will try and work with it when feasible

I’m so sad that you can’t see me and you only see how you fear I will be

I wish you could view acts of relationship nourishment as a beautiful thing

But I respect you are who you are with your wounding and your energy levels and your inhibitions and communication struggles

And I’m sorry you are in that place that hinders you from having what you want

I can’t handle the confusion anymore

Maybe one day you will be more internally clear and I will get to hear about it

Tonight I wish that you were holding me after a super rough day