25f i want a guy who will cheat on me

24f, a guy ive been talking to lately has been in the likes and comments of so many girls on insta, a lot of them way thicker and prettier than me, and it honestly turns me on a lot. i like going through his following and seeing all the models and random pretty girls he follows and interacts with. i guess i kind of like the idea of a guy im dating having crushes on other girls. even the idea of using my money for dates with other women, etc. and emotionally and physically cheating from someone im in a relationship with makes me kind of turned on. is this weird at all? id love hearing thoughts on this. i also like being degraded aside from everything, but maybe that could be part of where this is coming from. either way i kind of love it, and want to explore things more.