How do I stop feeling like I’m just going through limeremce? (Celebrity Sp)

For the last year and a half, I’ve been manifesting someone— a famous, celebrity sp. When I say famous, I don’t mean a niche celebrity who only has like 100k instagram followers. I mean FAMOUS famous (A list, high net worth, if you don’t know who they are, are you living under a rock type shit). I’ve seen some movement I guess but nothing that I feel directly ties to my manifestation of us being in a romantic relationship. Last year I manifested somehow getting a ticket to a sold out concert (even though I did this unconsciously because I wasn’t actively thinking about it at all, nor did I expect to go to this concert). This year, I went to another concert date in another city and at this show, they even noticed me a few times when they came to my section. I wasn’t doing anything to get their attention, but they still noticed me nonetheless and even looked back at me again when they were walking away from where I was. 

Other than that, nothing super substantial has happened. There’s also a 3p situation that I’ve been trying my best not to feed in to, but sometimes it’s hard. I have the 3p blocked on social media and I literally never check their accounts. And because of how famous my sp is, I have their name muted on TikTok just so that nothing related to 3p accidentally makes its way into my fyp. It’s good because they don’t really post that much about each other and seem like they’re trying to stay private, but the few times I do see pictures of them or hints of them still being together, I’d be lying if I were to say I don’t get a bit sad. 

I’ve worked a lot on my self concept. I’ve reached a point where I think we’d be really good for each other. I still have some off days every now and then, but compared to the beginning of this manifestation, I’ve come a long way in believing I’m worthy of not just this person, but any love that comes my way (though my desire is set on my sp ultimately). But sometimes I do question if I’m really manifesting or if I’m idealizing this person. Because despite manifesting a celeb sp, outside of my imaginal 4D, my brain reminds me that in the 3D I quite literally do not know this person. My feelings for this person kind of came suddenly and abruptly as before I started manifesting them, I was actually mostly indifferent about them outside of liking some of their songs. I have had questions of why I desire this person and have worked through trying to figure out if I really want them or if I’m just projecting an idea. I always come back to wanting them despite the reflections and attempts of distance to see if my feelings ever go away (spoiler: they don’t). Stuff like this scare me because I don’t want to feel like I’m going through my life believing in a “fantasy” that won’t happen, but I don’t know what to do. I guess my overall question is, how do I stop feelings of wondering if I’m just going through a phase of limerence or if I should continue in persisting in this desire? I sometimes catch myself feeling crazy for wanting to manifest this person