21 M feeling pent up and curious

so lately i’ve been pretty stressed out in my daily life and go days without touching myself until i stumble upon this subreddit and various femboy subreddits where edge for hours. god it feels so good and perverted to read stories and look at guys show off their asses/cock. nothing turns me on more than seeing a submissive guy show off his ass for the entire internet to see god that’s so hot. i love femboys , i love bubblebutts, guys with fat asses and small cocks turn me on, what’s wrong with my head? am i some kind of pervert for thinking these things? something about fucking a bottom turns me on and makes me want to try it