35 [M4F] Texas/Online only. I don’t have a creative title

What I do have is a lot of feelings lately. It’s been hard for me to really put them into words and this is my attempt.

I’m new to this side of Reddit but heard that it’s a pretty welcoming place. I hope to experience that.

I’ve been married for a little over 10 years and can honestly say that I have never truly felt desired by my wife. She always treats sex with little to no foreplay, never sexts with me, very rarely will shower with me, and always wants sex to be finished ASAP it seems.

I want more. I long to be seen, desired, lusted after. I’ve tried telling her this to be met with a shrug and low level apology. I do my fair share and then some around the house.

Maybe I’m the problem. Maybe I’m too fat, ugly and too small of a dick. Idk anymore. All I know is that right now I feel unloved, undesirable, and unworthy and I’m just looking for an escape from it.