My many failed relationships.

I am 33 years old I moved back in to my parents house because of failed relationships. My first relationship at 17 I had 2 sons. We lived in his mom’s basement. He neglected me pretty much the whole time & cheated on me so I moved back in to my parents house. Me second relationship at 25 I had one daughter. We had everything together multiple cars & a house I paid for but I had bad credit so he put it in his name. I paid for everything. We both cheated, he mainly cheated through the phone, I cheated in person (long story). I bought him clothes, even co-signed for his car. He got someone pregnant married her. So I moved back in with my mom & he kept the house. Now I am married we barely started talking & in a few months we got married. At first things were great but after we got married he was really mean to me. He would tell me how lucky that a guy like him even looked my way. He said my kids were too much for him. He lives in a small apartment we were all living in but it’s so small I asked him we should start looking at houses & he said no. We got into a lot of arguments so I decided to move back in with my parents. I sought for divorce be he said he doesn’t want a divorce. I am still living at my parents house but I talk to him on the phone every now & then. He never asks me to move back in or for us to get a house together & I don’t push it. This is my marriage, we don’t live together & just talk on the phone every now & then. I can’t get a house on my own because I don’t have good credit & still owe a lot of money for my truck. I have a decent job but I couldn’t do it on my own.