the urges 🫩💔

i reallllllyyyyy want to cut, but i dont really have any ‘reason’ to right now. i just want to. im only like, 2 weeks clean??? i’ve been too distracted and busy to. i think maybe the fact that there’s a brand new, sharp ass blade in my room might be contributing to it bcuz i’ve been curious about it. i can’t just throw it away either bcuz it’s not even mine (it’s part of a craft set). i want to sooo badly and idk how to make the urges go away 😓💔 i really want more marks on my arms, it’s frustrating