How could you abandon me?

We were each others person. We fit together like peas in a pod. You knew me. The real me. I knew you. The little things. You knew how to dom me. I knew exactly what melted you. We had everything in common. We caught feelings and didn’t hide them. There were no games! No playing hard to get. No wondering if we felt the same. But then it all stopped. You suddenly got scared by this love. You didn’t expect it and neither did I. But I accepted it. I leaned into it. You suddenly started thinking extenuating circumstances were going to forever keep us from any sort of happily ever after. Circumstances that WE could control. I tried to explain that to you in every way. You opened up to me that you failed as a leader by not stopping or slowing things down. I tried to tell you that you had no control over my feelings. And we did nothing wrong. So You said I was worth it. Everything you dreamed of. You didn’t want to give me up. But you did anyway. Knowing I had answers and suggestions. Knowing how we both felt. We never fought. Disagreements were always us vs the problem. Not me vs you. But you shattered my soul. My heart is broken beyond my own comprehension. I am in physical pain. And I still can’t hate you.