I (22M) love love but hate dating

What the title says. For some background that'll be important later, I'm also Jewish and high functioning autistic.

Anyway, in terms of loving love, I absolutely love the feeling of clicking with a woman I adore. I love holding her hand, cuddling, looking in and adoring her eyes, the idea of being there for her, exchanging/debating ideas with her and hearing her unique takes on things, the idea of pleasuring her, supporting her in her endeavors (professional and otherwise), and just falling in love with her mind and by extension, her.

Dating has absolutely sucked since I've been ghosted rather often by my matches on Hinge, the time where I was closest to forming a romantic relationship failed since the girl turned out to be antisemitic and didn't like me anymore despite us liking each other and having a mutual interest in "why people do the things they do", I hate feeling guilty for not romantically liking women who show me interest despite me just not feeling the same, and so few people interest me since I adore intelligence and bond through knowledge, interests, and people's passions. I wish I could find out where I need to fish since I feel like I'm fishing in the wrong pond due to so few people I meet feeling compatible due to most people just not being interested in anything.

I also feel as if dating goes too fast since I'd honestly prefer to take things slowly since I like to really know how a person thinks before entering a relationship with them since I'm attracted to people's minds and I really want to know what makes them... them.

Anyway, I'm tearing up as I write this since I just wish I could find and be with someone who both feels the same way about me, and is compatible in the sense they have things they are interested in and like to explore my mind in the way I like exploring theirs. I just needed to vent since I just wish I could find someone I truly adore