A month away

Well, L…

Tomorrow is December 1st, so I’m a month out from another NYE alone. I can’t believe I don’t have someone who would enjoy a night of charcuterie and champagne along with the ball drop on tv. That’s the night we always had, and is why I picked that night in 2017 to propose. I haven’t found someone new.

The mere sound of Auld Lang Syne is going to send me back into tears like it did before we met. Being alone on NYE isn’t new for me. I’ve been there before. I can’t hear that song without being completely aware of the silence around me.

This idea that I’d be okay and would find someone new was way off. You were wrong about that.

But it’s what I know. It’s how I’ve lived for years. I can’t wait for January to get here so I can move past that night.