I’m confused as to where I am in this whole universe?

I don’t know why I’m here or what for, or where I am. Please hear me out tho. For a few years now, I’ve been having this constant feeling of being watched by some sort of spirit or something. I don’t know why I’m here , like I feel like everything has been giving me signs. Constant angel numbers, miracles, good luck even when I don’t want it. I don’t know what I’m here for but it’s clearly something special. I feel confused, about this reality/world, and what I’m in. Like what am I doing here? Was I sent here for a reason?

Every dream I have is about me dying somehow or someone I know not heading my warning and we both die (usually in a car crash that was avoidable), I feel like maybe I’m supposed to help people somehow, or I’m here to warn of something and that’s why no matter how many times I attempt to take my life, I survive. I’m being kept here for something.

Also, I don’t know if alternate realities are in the same universe as the original reality, or if alternate reality =alternate universe?