Is there anyone else too, who doesn't like his/her own birthday?

My birthday is coming on 4th(22yo) and i realty really do not like my birthday at all (I'm anxious from now). All the other people around me like family, friends are excited but I never. I even cry almost on my every birthday after 15 (yes do have past things but not over of them) still i really really don't like it.

I dont like wishes, excitement, party, doing something special for me even. I just want to stay home and avoid everyone and all the calls.

Fun fact: I even never received a gift till now(not just birthday, not at all. I don't know why I'm mentioning.

Feel little light after writing all these.