How to find interest in life

I've been depressed for as long as I can remember, but I thought it was because of high school and that after I graduated it would go away. I graduated a year ago and it only got worse. I started having anxiety and overthinking, I pushed all my friends away and now I'm alone. I have no direction for the future because I've never had any dreams (if other kids wanted to become actors, singers, doctors, I would never have anything ). I feel like I'm worthless and even when I will find a job, it will continue. And of course, I have no hobbies - I've never had any and I don't have anything I'm drawn to. I don't have money for a psychologist and I'm not sure how much it will help. What the hell to do