Can't stop obsessing

About eight years ago my wife and I found a man on Craigslist. We ended up having a few encounters with him. Sometimes threesomes, sometimes just her and him alone. Ever since then I have been completely obsessed with the idea, although she is less interested these days.

The sex was great. Some of the best sex of my life. She enjoyed it too. He had a nice big cock, and she loved it. She couldn't keep her hands off it, and loved having it in her mouth. The way that she would moan when he fucked her. It was incredible.

I have one video that I saved. It is a B&W "night vision" video from a cheap security camera that I set up (with their knowledge and permission). It was from one encounter where he came over while I was at work. It's amazing. I have masturbated to that video hundreds of times, and it never gets old. Even though the video is grainy and low-quality, it's the hottest thing I've ever seen. The chemistry between them is electric. He was about fifteen years younger than her, muscular, and heavy-set. He loved having sex with her, and he fucked her so well. She would get so wet for him, and the way that she moans when he slides his cock inside her drives me crazy. In the video, when he starts thrusting slowly, she lets out an "Ohhhhh, yeahhhh..." in this breathy, dreamy way. She claims that she never orgasmed from penetration with him, but I suspect that she is just trying to save my feelings, as I have never made her cum that way. But the way that she moans and screams in the video really seems like she was cumming hard.

Over the years she has opened up slowly about her preference for well-endowed men. I've been actively encouraging her, but she's definitely not into having more threesomes. While I would absolutely love to, I would also be okay with her finding someone on the side and meeting up with him alone. We fantasize together about her meeting someone secretly, but I don't think that she would in real life.

When she told me about how she met a man in a cafe back in October when she was on a European girls trip, it made my fantasies kick into high gear. I keep hoping that they're in touch and planning to meet up, as he is from the same state.

Most of my fantasies involving her and another man are just in my own head now, and I don't voice them a lot of the time. I just get worked up thinking about her having sex with another man. I look on Reddit for photos and videos of men that I'd like to see her with, and I get so worked up.

Maybe I'm just way more into the idea of it than she is, but after seeing her with another man and how much she enjoyed it, how much louder she moaned, how she couldn't seem to get enough of his cock, I wonder why she wouldn't want more of that. I guess there is a chance that she is just over it, or that she does have someone that she meets up with from time to time. Every time she goes out alone to go shopping or run errands, I fantasize that she's meeting up with someone. It turns me on so much.

I would love to hear from other people, husbands or hotwives, who are or have been in a similar situation. I'd love to chat and swap stories as well.