I’m on the fence

I’m sorry if this is incoherent but I’ve been seeing a lot of Hellenist polytheism content lately and I’ve been curious. I’m still on the fence lately about committing (I have a sort of fear of commitment especially towards things like this, idk maybe it’s from Christianity. I find that I don’t really tend to stick with things for long- I should make it clear that I am NOT treating this as a hobby- so having to devote my life to this kind of scares me. Idk)

I’d like to make sure I’m doing this for the “right” reasons. I haven’t felt particularly “pulled” to any god but I’m assuming to build a bond I’d have to start but I don’t know if I can just start without having a bond… do you see where I’m going with this? So would I just pick a god/goddess and start?